dear blog,

these few days have been such a bumpy ride for me.
i've had so many changes in my life,
the ending of my secondary school life,
the fact that i won't be wearing that piece of uniform like, ever. (maybe some other uniform)
it's just, cruel fate that my secondary school life should end ever so abruptly, just when i had started to get comfortable.
it's just devastating.
est 1 was my last paper,
after it, everyone was just simply, overjoyed,
it was the end.
everything we had been working hard for for our secondary school life,
had finally come to an end.
what the results would be is a totally different story,
but what matters is that me, my mates, and my friends do not lose contact,
i will make sure we keep in touch.

and now,
things have changed for me.
i've finally begun to cherish what's right in front of me.
because of losing them, just ever so frequently.
i've learnt to cherish the friends who care,
and i now know what i want in life,
instead of blindly accepting things i don't even know are gonna be alright.

my life started out as a choice from many different roads, branched out from one main road,
it was the beginning of my teenage life.
and after picking out each road, there were many other separate branches out from that very road,
some leading to another road, and some just following onto the desired destination.
the roads are not all good,
some of them were really nasty ones, the ones that you would just walk to your doom even though the road looks really smooth and easy.
and i do admit that i've trodded on those roads as well.
i'm glad i did.
now i know not to.
because after coming to my senses, i worked hard,
brick by brick,
step by step,
walking myself, to my destination.

this is me.
and ME right now, is composed of many, many experiences,
many mistakes, many lessons, many incidents and events.
it was just like sitting a rollercoaster inside a hurricane.
i'm glad it's over.

of course,
this road has not ended yet.
and i intent to keep walking the bright path that shines brightly, and the bright path that is just very hard to tread.
because i know there is no other meaning, following the rest.

i will walk my way into making decisions i never once thought i'd make.
making initiatives i never imagined i would.
doing things that i never expected to do.
because with god by my side,
i know it will be alright, even when things don't turn out my way,
because it's all a part of God's plan.
and i respect that fully. (even though at that moment i may seem like i don't, but hey, don't mess with the big guy up there! :))

right now the things that come my way.
is left unwritten.
and i know sometimes i'm not perfect, and tend to be just, absolutely insolently different.
bear with me, and i'll know you're worth the effort.

does this sound like any of you out there? :)

posted by bunnyboo
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